I went to Al-Anon again tonight and left feeling pretty lonely. I go to the meeting, sit down in the group. Listen, offer a little of where I am when the discussion comes to me. And then at the end of the meeting, everyone gathers in small groups of 2 or 3 to visit…and no one talks to me.
No one asks how things are going at home? If I enjoyed the meeting? Do I attend other meetings? In my mind, I want to consider this my “home” meeting, but isn’t home somewhere you feel wanted?
I’ve got enough Al-Anon under my belt to know that I shouldn’t be pointing the figure at what other group members are or are not doing and need to be looking to myself for a solution. I should engage others in conversation. I should tell someone personally what their comment meant to me.
But truthfully, I want to be taken care of. I want someone to reach out, pull me in and shepherd me through these first months of my own recovery. Is that too much to ask?
