Tonight’s meeting was a step meeting focused on Step 6: Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
I haven’t actually started working the steps yet, though I think I’ve managed Step 1.
But as I listened to the discussion at the meeting, I knew that I’ve been being called to Step 6 for several years. I’ve been on a few retreats and had one significant dream, all of which I came away from with the message “Surrender.” Give it up, let go, quit fighting it…surrender.
And that idea seemed like an edict to throw up my hands in defeat and concede that I can’t do it — “it” being a variety of things from control what people think to how they act to continue living the impossibly crazy life I’ve been living.
But with a few months of Al-Anon under my belt, that same call to surrender seems like an invitation to a more serene life. I am beginning to understand that I was partially right, I CAN’T do it…ALONE. I have been and am continually called to allow God to restore me to sanity.
Hmmm….looks like I am moving into Step 2 by recognizing the call to Step 6.
ETA — There is a young woman I met at Al-Anon who hasn’t been there in a few weeks. I hope she is ok. Please pray for P. that God give her the grace that she needs at this time.
